Where to begin....
I used to be quite the handsome chappy. Average build with some muscle definition, good teeth, great hair & the bluest eyes on a 17 year old. Then shit got real & I just got depressed. Nothing too bad like threatening my own life or anything like that, but motivation left me..... I wasn't in a happy job or relationship, so I just gave in.
And you know what, I was comfortable with that.
I was comfortable being lazy, slobbish, over-weight and unfit. Because I was open & myself.
Now, I'm on a long journey, which started off as a small cliff face, levelling out to a gentle slope before *BAM!!!!* Brick wall. Now, I'm the kind of guy who can stare at a brick wall for hours trying to figure out how to get over it or look for a gate through it. But this one stretches beyond the horizons to my left and right. I can see the sun before midday, but after that it's eclipsed by the wall.
I had reached my point of no progress.
Until now....
I have a small crowd of supporters that help me out. They yell encouragement when I climb & offer condolences when I fall What I really need is a belay team, to help me continue even when I fall.
And I know that'll happen soon
I've got goals that need to be met. Who wants to help me?
Monday, 25 March 2013
Monday, 18 February 2013
Well.... That escalated quickly
Greetings, you lovely minions.
So, as most of you are aware (and if you're not, just scroll back through time... it's amazing) I've been feeling a tad down in the dumps lately.
Although if you were to look at me, you wouldn't see it.
Anyways, back onto the right subject now :-) The impossible has happened... I have a girlfriend. Now, I know what you're thinking and it's along the lines of "Big-whoop ¬_¬" But for me, this is a huge deal as I had pretty much resigned myself to singledom for the foreseeable future, and then literally out of no-where we got talking.
As far as first dates go, it started off a disaster, with both of us arriving late (although one of us later than the other) the "date-plan" getting chucked out of the window, except for one tiny part, which was to view Birmingham from the Hyatt Hotel... We didn't have a room, we just wandered in and looked out the main windows. But a little food, a little alcohol, and a little metal music and we were both relaxed, smiling and having fun.
Then things went on from there.
Now, I'm not normally one to enjoy receiving a lot of presents for my birthday, or for valentines (Birthday on the 13th, Valentines on the 14th... just too much) but any girlfriend who can get jokey presents such as an inflatable zimmer-frame, a kitchen apron with blow-up-bewbs, a back scratcher (or 'any-body-part-scratcher' for that matter) and a little 'Dick'-y bow tie (guess where it goes... That's right, and for that, you get 5 internet points. Spend 'em wisely) and still find time to come over, let me cook & just relax. That's the sign that things will be good.
And things have not only been good, they've been great.
My dad's hip is getting a lot better, over Christmas I was seeing him going from crutches to sticks, to stick. Going for walks along the shore & just becoming more active & independant. My sisters cancer was removed with no complications, She may have a fairly large scar along her jawline and a hole where the tumour was, but a small price to pay for what could have been something serious. (besides, she's my sister & I love her :-) ) Uni is going well, and I'm making steps to become a paramedic. Just need to convince them that I am worthy enough to be on the course. My enthusiasm is indirectly proportional to my grades.
So, Thank you, so far, 2013. You've treated me better than 2012 ever did.
Peace Out
-C
So, as most of you are aware (and if you're not, just scroll back through time... it's amazing) I've been feeling a tad down in the dumps lately.
Although if you were to look at me, you wouldn't see it.
Anyways, back onto the right subject now :-) The impossible has happened... I have a girlfriend. Now, I know what you're thinking and it's along the lines of "Big-whoop ¬_¬" But for me, this is a huge deal as I had pretty much resigned myself to singledom for the foreseeable future, and then literally out of no-where we got talking.
As far as first dates go, it started off a disaster, with both of us arriving late (although one of us later than the other) the "date-plan" getting chucked out of the window, except for one tiny part, which was to view Birmingham from the Hyatt Hotel... We didn't have a room, we just wandered in and looked out the main windows. But a little food, a little alcohol, and a little metal music and we were both relaxed, smiling and having fun.
Then things went on from there.
Now, I'm not normally one to enjoy receiving a lot of presents for my birthday, or for valentines (Birthday on the 13th, Valentines on the 14th... just too much) but any girlfriend who can get jokey presents such as an inflatable zimmer-frame, a kitchen apron with blow-up-bewbs, a back scratcher (or 'any-body-part-scratcher' for that matter) and a little 'Dick'-y bow tie (guess where it goes... That's right, and for that, you get 5 internet points. Spend 'em wisely) and still find time to come over, let me cook & just relax. That's the sign that things will be good.
And things have not only been good, they've been great.
My dad's hip is getting a lot better, over Christmas I was seeing him going from crutches to sticks, to stick. Going for walks along the shore & just becoming more active & independant. My sisters cancer was removed with no complications, She may have a fairly large scar along her jawline and a hole where the tumour was, but a small price to pay for what could have been something serious. (besides, she's my sister & I love her :-) ) Uni is going well, and I'm making steps to become a paramedic. Just need to convince them that I am worthy enough to be on the course. My enthusiasm is indirectly proportional to my grades.
So, Thank you, so far, 2013. You've treated me better than 2012 ever did.
Peace Out
-C
Wednesday, 28 November 2012
Greetings :-)
Ok, so this year has been a mixture of both good and bad. Lets start with the positive
Good
Bad
Good
- Met some fantastic new friends
- Lost roughly 4 stone in weight
- Took up new hobbies (Photography, more music, Martial arts, magic)
- Been to some weird and wonderful places
- Visited a zoo 3 times this year, each time I stroked a giraffe
Bad
- Still Single
- Sister was diagnosed with a benign tumour and had to have an op
- Dad broke his hip whilst on holiday which hasn't healed as well as they would like... Meaning another op.
- People whom I have developed a crush on seem to find interest in someone else, often quoting "you're a nice guy, any woman would be a fool not to be with you"
- Getting my arse kicked by Uni work (ok, it's 3rd year so it's expected)
- Lack of funds and can't find work (been applying and applying but to no avail)
Sunday, 18 November 2012
*opens eyes and yawns* Morning
You know.....it really is quite remarkable the difference that can happen in a year.
Will try to make more of this blog from now on :-)
Will try to make more of this blog from now on :-)
Tuesday, 18 October 2011
Hi all
been a while since I posted here.
Thought I would post this here rather than facebook, or twitter (even though I don't have one) etc. To be honest, I've been feeling a bit crap.
I'm fairly useless at writing down how I truly feel as I always seem to mess it up, and there is always someone who could write it a lot more eloquently than myself.
In this case it's Gotthard, a soft rock group which was fronted by a man named Steve Lee, who unfortunately was killed last year in a freak accident.
The song is "And then Goodbye" and it's basically mapped out the last 4 years of my life...But you know what, I don't regret a single moment of them. Except the ones where I was a true idiot.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RHUJOju4QYE
enjoy
C
Thought I would post this here rather than facebook, or twitter (even though I don't have one) etc. To be honest, I've been feeling a bit crap.
I'm fairly useless at writing down how I truly feel as I always seem to mess it up, and there is always someone who could write it a lot more eloquently than myself.
In this case it's Gotthard, a soft rock group which was fronted by a man named Steve Lee, who unfortunately was killed last year in a freak accident.
The song is "And then Goodbye" and it's basically mapped out the last 4 years of my life...But you know what, I don't regret a single moment of them. Except the ones where I was a true idiot.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RHUJOju4QYE
enjoy
C
Monday, 3 October 2011
Wednesday, 8 June 2011
Bad Science (sorry Mr Goldacre, couldn't think of anything else to call it)
Well, after a quick look on facebook it appears that I may have rattled the cage of someone who thinks that big pharmacutical companies are bad, and that all-natural is the panacea of illnesses. I won't point names and name fingers, but I will paste our conversation.
Him: Type up 'veganism and cancer' on Google, also 'Wheatgrass and cancer' on Google, they both basically prevent cancer if you've been diagnosed with it. There's also an Amazonian plant which can heal cancer, but the state like an unhealthy nation because we then become reliant on them, believing they are trying to help us find a cure, when all they're really doing is exploiting our loved ones illnesses for profit.
Me: know what, there are so many flaws with your points Stevie that it wouldn't even be fair to point them out. But not on here.
Him: Well as it seems from your profile you're 'pro-state' anyway. My points have also been proven on various accounts including a couple of which I've witnessed, one of which a guy had lung cancer and hair loss, and a few shots of wheatgrass a day over a course of time and his lungs repaired themselves and his hair grew back, you can't disprove something like that surely?
Yes It's been edited as it was on a relatives post. Also, yes, I will disprove it.
You see, Wheatgrass contains the following ingrediants... Grass. Ok, if you want to get technical, (thank you http://www.internethealthlibrary.com/Plant-Remedies/wheatgrass.htm )
1) "Wheatgrass works by filling nutritional gaps in the diet and cleansing the blood. It is high in vitamins A, C and E, containing the same amount of vitamin C as an orange. It is also an excellent source of essential B vitamins, which are necessary for normal brain and body development.
2)Wheatgrass juice also contains many essential minerals : calcium, magnesium, potassium, iron, sodium, necessary for healthy bones, teeth, hair and skin.
3)Wheatgrass juice contains natural enzymes, which help the bodies defence mechanism by strengthening cells and removing poisons from the blood stream. It helps eliminate toxins accumulated from eating processed food, breathing polluted air and drinking impure water.
4)Wheatgrass also has dilating effect on the blood vessels allowing blood to flow more easily. This improved circulation means valuable nutrients can be distributed more efficiently throughout the body. It also has an effect on red blood cells, whereby it increases the iron content in the blood."
wow, it sounds very powerful. I will debunk this part one paragraph at a time. Starting from 1.
1)Any person who knows what a perfectly balanced diet is would NOT be having nutritional gaps. Also, it is unclear about how much wheatgrass contains the orange equivalent of Vit C, is it a little? is it a lot? is it a sugar-cubes worth? is it a metric-fuckload? who knows? Anyways, moving on, B vitamins. Having looked at wikipedia, the conditions which arise from all B vitamins is pretty darn scary. However, as pointed out, any person with a varied diet (heck, even processed food these days) will be ingesting B vitamins. So that's out the window.
2) wow, sounds pretty cool, again, see point 1 about a balanced diet.
3)ENZYMES DO NOT COCKING WELL DO THAT!!!! Granted they may be primarily used in digestion and cell mediation, but they do NOT clean the blood. That's up to the Spleen and the Kidneys. The blood passes through the spleen where white blood cells attack, ingest and then digest any foreign invader (organic or not!) whilst the kidneys filter out the liquids. Enzymes don't play a part in it!
4) The only thing I could find to support this was from http://www.livestrong.com/article/442161-what-are-the-benefits-of-wheat-grass-capsules/ where it says "Ingredients in wheat grass MAY!!! stimulate your body to produce small amounts of natural nitric oxide. Nitric oxide causes your blood vessels to dilate." (see how I highlighted may? they're unsure and are guessing.)
Oh, one more thing. For people to take vitamin supplements, they normally come in a huge pill. This is because it's an enteric coating designed to take a corrosive beating from the stomach, meaning that you won't get 100% of the dose, but it's a damn sight more than a normal sugar-coating. So when you ingest wheatgrass, all them lovely nutrients and vasodilators and yummy enzymes are destroyed in the stomach. Seriously, in the continuing battle between chemicals, acids come out close to the top (alkali is worse ;-) )
Right, that's that part debunked. Let's go on about the Lung Cancer and the Hair loss. Firstly, I know not the circumstances surrounding the hair loss (could be chemo, could be alocepia, could be trauma. I dunno) But wheatgrass won't cause hair follicles to grow back. Once the root is gone, that's it, the chances of hair growing back their naturally are quite slim. If it did cause hair to grow back, I know a lot of bald blokes who would be downing it like vodka. Secondly, It appears that all those smart pharmacutical companies, biochemists and medical degrees are a waste. I mean, Cancer has been around since the dawn of time (well, seeing as it is just rogue cells, it fits really)and survival rates have never been higher thanks to modern medicine and intervention. But these are all relatively new. Say roughly 20-30 years, yet Wheatgrass has been around for millenia and still Cancer was a death sentance back then. Granted that lower life expectancy meant you wouldn't reach old age to be the most prone to cancer, but if you did live longer then, you would see.
I also refer to the little addendum after point 4. Orally ingested enzymes are digested in the stomach and have no enzymatic activity in the eater.
TL;DR? Wheatgrass curing cancer and hair-loss? Please, that's along the same lines as Homeopathy!
Him: Type up 'veganism and cancer' on Google, also 'Wheatgrass and cancer' on Google, they both basically prevent cancer if you've been diagnosed with it. There's also an Amazonian plant which can heal cancer, but the state like an unhealthy nation because we then become reliant on them, believing they are trying to help us find a cure, when all they're really doing is exploiting our loved ones illnesses for profit.
Me: know what, there are so many flaws with your points Stevie that it wouldn't even be fair to point them out. But not on here.
Him: Well as it seems from your profile you're 'pro-state' anyway. My points have also been proven on various accounts including a couple of which I've witnessed, one of which a guy had lung cancer and hair loss, and a few shots of wheatgrass a day over a course of time and his lungs repaired themselves and his hair grew back, you can't disprove something like that surely?
Yes It's been edited as it was on a relatives post. Also, yes, I will disprove it.
You see, Wheatgrass contains the following ingrediants... Grass. Ok, if you want to get technical, (thank you http://www.internethealthlibrary.com/Plant-Remedies/wheatgrass.htm )
1) "Wheatgrass works by filling nutritional gaps in the diet and cleansing the blood. It is high in vitamins A, C and E, containing the same amount of vitamin C as an orange. It is also an excellent source of essential B vitamins, which are necessary for normal brain and body development.
2)Wheatgrass juice also contains many essential minerals : calcium, magnesium, potassium, iron, sodium, necessary for healthy bones, teeth, hair and skin.
3)Wheatgrass juice contains natural enzymes, which help the bodies defence mechanism by strengthening cells and removing poisons from the blood stream. It helps eliminate toxins accumulated from eating processed food, breathing polluted air and drinking impure water.
4)Wheatgrass also has dilating effect on the blood vessels allowing blood to flow more easily. This improved circulation means valuable nutrients can be distributed more efficiently throughout the body. It also has an effect on red blood cells, whereby it increases the iron content in the blood."
wow, it sounds very powerful. I will debunk this part one paragraph at a time. Starting from 1.
1)Any person who knows what a perfectly balanced diet is would NOT be having nutritional gaps. Also, it is unclear about how much wheatgrass contains the orange equivalent of Vit C, is it a little? is it a lot? is it a sugar-cubes worth? is it a metric-fuckload? who knows? Anyways, moving on, B vitamins. Having looked at wikipedia, the conditions which arise from all B vitamins is pretty darn scary. However, as pointed out, any person with a varied diet (heck, even processed food these days) will be ingesting B vitamins. So that's out the window.
2) wow, sounds pretty cool, again, see point 1 about a balanced diet.
3)ENZYMES DO NOT COCKING WELL DO THAT!!!! Granted they may be primarily used in digestion and cell mediation, but they do NOT clean the blood. That's up to the Spleen and the Kidneys. The blood passes through the spleen where white blood cells attack, ingest and then digest any foreign invader (organic or not!) whilst the kidneys filter out the liquids. Enzymes don't play a part in it!
4) The only thing I could find to support this was from http://www.livestrong.com/article/442161-what-are-the-benefits-of-wheat-grass-capsules/ where it says "Ingredients in wheat grass MAY!!! stimulate your body to produce small amounts of natural nitric oxide. Nitric oxide causes your blood vessels to dilate." (see how I highlighted may? they're unsure and are guessing.)
Oh, one more thing. For people to take vitamin supplements, they normally come in a huge pill. This is because it's an enteric coating designed to take a corrosive beating from the stomach, meaning that you won't get 100% of the dose, but it's a damn sight more than a normal sugar-coating. So when you ingest wheatgrass, all them lovely nutrients and vasodilators and yummy enzymes are destroyed in the stomach. Seriously, in the continuing battle between chemicals, acids come out close to the top (alkali is worse ;-) )
Right, that's that part debunked. Let's go on about the Lung Cancer and the Hair loss. Firstly, I know not the circumstances surrounding the hair loss (could be chemo, could be alocepia, could be trauma. I dunno) But wheatgrass won't cause hair follicles to grow back. Once the root is gone, that's it, the chances of hair growing back their naturally are quite slim. If it did cause hair to grow back, I know a lot of bald blokes who would be downing it like vodka. Secondly, It appears that all those smart pharmacutical companies, biochemists and medical degrees are a waste. I mean, Cancer has been around since the dawn of time (well, seeing as it is just rogue cells, it fits really)and survival rates have never been higher thanks to modern medicine and intervention. But these are all relatively new. Say roughly 20-30 years, yet Wheatgrass has been around for millenia and still Cancer was a death sentance back then. Granted that lower life expectancy meant you wouldn't reach old age to be the most prone to cancer, but if you did live longer then, you would see.
I also refer to the little addendum after point 4. Orally ingested enzymes are digested in the stomach and have no enzymatic activity in the eater.
TL;DR? Wheatgrass curing cancer and hair-loss? Please, that's along the same lines as Homeopathy!
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